Dealing with the prospect of losing my child

On Tuesday, life presented me with some very difficult circumstances and an incredible opportunity to grow.

My family left for India on July 4th and arrived there on July 6th.  A mere four hours after they landed, my 9-year-old daughter started vomiting and this continued for almost 8 hours.  She got severely dehydrated and extremely weak.  She did not eat or drink since she could not hold anything down.

I was traveling in Boston and was quite concerned.  Later that night, upon returning to Pittsburgh, I called my wife to hear that our daughter fell asleep, but woke up in the middle of the night saying that everything was fuzzy and that she could not see very well and there were white halos around things.  This really scared my wife and as I heard it, my fear started to grow and energy drain out of my body.

I was alone in my house more than 12,000 miles away from her and felt really helpless and totally powerless.  I started to howl and cry uncontrollably.  I was not feeling any better and in fact it was getting worse and my fear and anxiety were escalating.  This went on for a couple of minutes and then something amazing happened.

I asked myself this question, “Who is crying?” not “Why am I crying?”

The reply came immediately,  “My Ego is crying.” It was feeling totally helpless and out of control.

What happened next brought me so much peace that I was inspired to share this with you.  I reminded myself, “If she is a spirit and I am a spirit, then why am I getting so worked up?

I cannot tell you how quickly the trauma and the drama subsided.  There was instant calm. Please read my other post “Do you feel sad when an ice cube melts?” if you have not done so.  I have also added to it since this amazing experience.

I sincerely hope that this post provides an opening to those who may have experienced such situations.  Peace!

About Krishna Pendyala

Author of "Beyond the PIG and the APE: Realizing SUCCESS and true HAPPINESS". I am a life coach, speaker and workshop leader. My vision is to enhance life on our planet by raising awareness of the ego, in a simple manner. My commitment is to empower men and women make better choices to achieve joy and fulfillment, without protracted struggles or huge personal crises. I believe we can create an enlightened society where inner awareness empowers people to thrive in harmony.
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4 Responses to Dealing with the prospect of losing my child

  1. Lehka is better now and is recovering well. Thank you all.

  2. Jenny says:

    Thank you – I’m happy your daughter is well.

    I lost my daughter 10 years ago on July 21.
    I made peace with this because I believe we will see each
    other again. We are spirits in this body.

    • Krishna says:

      I just noticed your comment while I was sharing this with someone who is grieving. I am sorry for your loss. I am so glad you made peace with it, because I have seen so many people devasted by such tragic events. Recently, I was telling my wife that the body is just PowerPoint for the soul. It helps us visualize the soul.

      Be well and in peace,


    • Denise says:

      Hello Jenny,
      I am so very sorry for your loss. You have my warmest thoughts and prayers with you tonight. You will most definitely see each other again, and though her presence is transformed she is close to you as you well know. This is a heavy burden to bear up under, may you be assisted by angels of mercy and compassion.

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